So I haven’t been here for quite some time and there are lots of reasons, or rather excuses that I can use for that. I could blame the new job, the loneliness or the lack the of motivation but the last excuse is probable the most fitting.
I have made a lot of promises to myself over the last couple of years and have kept very few of them. I have not gotten healthier, thinner or prettier. But I have become happier so that is something.
I am a more independent thinker now than I have ever been in my life. I no longer need to be part of a couple and am finding that I can exist solely on my own. I have left a lot of people by the wayside and that is a good thing, I have learned that my principles are important and so are my needs. That no longer includes enabling friends or family at the expense of myself.
What I need help with is doing all I need to do to get where I want to be. I need to be healthier and that means eating better and exercising more. That needs motivation and that is something I have never possessed. So will be spending time finding that with a lot of on-line research and soul searching. I know that I obviously don’t feel enough for myself to make it worth the effort. That is what I need, how to do that is another thing altogether.
So I suppose I start a new journey, hopefully one that ends more successfully than those of the past. If anyone has links or advice or really anything that could help pls share, I need all the help I can get.